When Marriage Feels Hopeless

When that rage burns through your body like a dragon breathing fire because you feel like your partner is just never going to get it, do you feel like just burning it all down? 

Do you want to throw in the towel and wave your white flag? 

Do you feel like locking the front door and just walking away completely? 

I feel your pain. 

I know it feels like things will never get better. 

I know these cycles can make you become paralyzed and withdrawn and it makes it hard to focus on your work and your kids. 

That feeling is terrible - feeling so stuck and not knowing what to do next, the guilt and the shame. 

You can go back and fight it out again, or you can retreat and try to soothe yourself with the usual - social media, shopping, drinks with friends, or maybe a trip to the gym…

They make you forget about the rage, the sadness, and utter disappointment of being in the same place you’ve been in for way too long. 

But they are only temporary. 

That’s not how you truly want to live. You don’t want to be numb and disconnected, and you’re probably really missing out on your kids' lives and giving them too much screen time because you just don’t have the energy to be engaged like you want to be. 

I’m not judging you. I know you’re doing the best you can do right now. But we both know you’re capable of so much more.  

I want to remind you of a couple things:

I want to remind you that you’re still in your relationship for a reason, probably multiple reasons. 

Maybe it’s your kids, or the life you’ve built together, and there’s probably still a lot of love there. Those things are so important to you or you’d be googling attorneys in your area rather than scrolling tiktok. 

I also want to remind you of a different time in your life. 

You can probably remember a time when you felt so happy and connected to your partner. A time when you were in love and had so much hope and excitement for the future. 

I know that you think about leaving and it might be hard to even remember a time when you weren’t fighting. 

But not being able to remember doesn’t mean that those happy times did not exist. It just means that you’re exhausted from being on the merry-go-round of fighting. 

Does this sound like a familiar cycle to you: Do you blow-up, push away, give the silent treatment, and then start speaking again when you have to (because of some shared commitment), and then extend an olive branch somehow and return to homeostasis, until the next time?  

I know these cycles so well! I know them because I see them day after day. When couples step into our offices for the first time we always ask them to describe the dance they do when they get into fights and while every couple is unique the cycles sound pretty similar. 

I know that this cycle is so frustrating because not only is it exhausting, it’s also not productive. You’re not actually solving any of the issues that are causing the blow-ups, and you know that you’re going to have the same argument again in a couple weeks. 

If you’re ready to get off the merry-go-round and start communicating in a way that makes you feel heard, respected, connected, and loved, we want to help. Click the link below to book your free, 15-minute phone consultation. We’ll get you set up with one of our expert couples therapists and help you stop feeling like you’re ready ro burn it all down!