IDK WTF I’m doing Either

We are on our 19th day of social distancing/quarantine, and you read that correctly - I don’t know wtf I’m doing either. 

It seems surreal that just a few weeks ago I was sitting across from clients in my office, and going about my week as usual, and then everything changed. It felt like the rug was pulled out from under me. 

The past 3 weeks have been like a roller coaster. Shifting my entire caseload online, working from home, homeschooling errrr, trying not to feel guilty about all the screentime my kids are getting, having our 20 year old daughter move back home from college, and making 1,284 +1 meals a day - how many meals do toddlers need in a day?? 

It’s been exhausting, and I’m just riding the wave like everyone else. Being a therapist doesn't make you immune from issues and stresses, and it certainly doesn’t offer immunity from the effects of a global pandemic.   

But as I write this today, on my 19th day of social distancing, I’m feeling like I’ve found my stride. I’m adjusting to this new normal, and I’ve moved out of my grief about it all (for now). 

But that’s where you still might be - paralyzed with anxiety, grieving and feeling depressed about the huge shifts and things that you’ve had to give up, cancel, and adjust to, and that’s ok too. No one has been through this, and therefore there are no right answers - we are all just doing the best we can. 

While I don’t know how to navigate my home life all the time, there are still things that I do know:

I’ve always known that community is important, and I’ve been involved in a handful that have really helped me in so many ways. I think our leaders got it wrong when they titled it, “Social Distancing,” because what we need isn’t to be socially distant, what we need is to be physically distant. 

Keep reaching out to the communities that you belong to online. If there isn’t an online presence for them already, you can create one - this has been really big for me, and kept me sane through the past couple of weeks. Checking in with friends, colleagues, and family online has been awesome. 

I know that there are couples out there that are still struggling, and that sheltering in place together is like having a microscope on your relationship. I know this because I’m still seeing them on my computer screen, and I’m still getting calls from them. 

I’ve had several couples tell me that this is actually a good time for them, because they are both home now due to work schedule changes, and they are able to use the time to focus on their relationships. 

I’ve also had couples tell me that they didn’t know how things would go as we shifted our work online, but that they have been pleasantly surprised to see that it is almost like being in the office. 

In the past couple of weeks I’ve also worked with couples whose small children were in the room during our sessions, and guess what? Instead of them being a huge distraction as they had feared, having the kids there allowed me to see their parenting dynamic, and it was all grist for the mill and extremely helpful. 

Right now social gatherings are on hold. But what’s not on hold is our emotional experience, and my clients are continuing to show up online and do the work that they know can’t wait until this “blows over.” The truth is, we don’t know when this is going to be over, so I urge you to take the time now to do the work and to reach out for therapy. There’s really never a right time, so even if you think online therapy isn’t ideal, you may be pleasantly surprised.